totally out of mood.
people often say life is great, life is awesome, yea, i do agree for some instance but not for now. everything is making me to give up slowly, day by day, minute by minute, and second by second. wasn't even tried once to think to give up, but the cruel fact makes me fed up. money does matter, wealth is important, health is wealth? hell no! the quote should be changed to wealth is health. although money is not everything, yet we can't live without money. money is happiness, poor brings tragedy. yea, im materialistic, for the world, *but not for you*. hope everything will be fine on you and i don't wanna make you get scolded again. after this, i'm sure we will have less chance to meet, less chance to hang out due to the reason. thanks for everything that you've given me. how am i going to return? have no idea. hell moody
relationship isn't only about two persons who are so passionate towards love, but it involved everything or everyone which or who is around you. i hope to be ignorance, but can i? i'm human. an useless human, have no ability to do everything. hope to earn money as fast as possible and i don't need to be dependent anymore. i want to be the one who feed my parents and i'm the one who giving money away to people but not receiving. hate this materialistic world but yet i'm a materialistic human. an undeniable fact and truth. hell moody
did not do well in test today, missed 40 marks out of 100, extremely idiot right? yes, i will never be success. why don't i just give up? failing in everything of my life, why don't i just end my life by jumping down from my apartment? i think 9 floors are more than enough for an useless person to die. hell sad
hairs dropping hell lots compared to old times. am i going to die? any illness that's with me? cancer? heart disease? kidney disease? or what? just ignore it, when it's time to die, then i will die. it's fate and i can't control it. bye world once again. hell scared
tears still drop whenever i think of baby. i will never forget the presence of hers.
hate you tears! please leave me, or else i will leave the world
