i want changes. i do not want static. i know we could hardly change ourselves within a short time. but at least giving a try is better than nothing. i can feel no difference. it does not make a drastic changes no matter in what. so did i make a sligtly wrong decision? perhaps old times are better than now. at least i'm free from everything. sigh. words are not as powerful as actions. action speaks much more louder than words. a glass half-filled with water, i would rather see it as half-empty but not half-full. i'm indeed a pessimistic person. i have said for a lot of times, the bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment. no hope? then continue our so-called-life though it is a little bit lifeless. life is not easy. people always say that, ' we control our own life!'. but are we able to control? at this moment, i am really confused about myself. i am an ordinary human. i do have feelings. i do smile. i do laugh out loud. i do feel touch. i do trop tears. i do cry! i ain't cold-blooded. i ain't tough. i ain't strong. i need somebody's shoulder to lean on. i am a girl.
