I am not happy.
Can someone please help me to pass this to my dearest mom?
I've no bravery at all.
Dear Mom,
i appreciate a lot when you're paying concern on my studies matter,
i truly believe that your choice is always smarter than mine,
i wish to follow always, as in every decision that you make.
i wish to make you happy, because you're my mother,
i always know that mom is always the best, and i always listen to you.
but this time, aiks, dilemma between uniten and utar.
i hate to make choice and decision, i would rather wait people to decide my future.
can i have a perfect solution for this case?
MOM, can i stay in Ipoh?
MOM, can i stay away from kl?
MOM, can i study what i want?
MOM, can i escape from engineering course?
Last time i always wished to get out from Utar instead of staying in the deadtown Kampar.
i wanted for more entertainment and i thought i could leave you all for a long period just for the sake of freedom.
now i know i was wrong! i have never tried to leave home for so long,
until i went penang for my part time job.
exactly 8 days, i couldn't bear with my homesick anymore.
now i know i couldn't leave Ipoh or the family for more than 5 days.
yes, 5 days are the maximum as i tried in my foundation at Utar.
aiks, what could be done?
it was all my fault, i was once trying so hard to get out from Kampar.
& now am i trying to persuade you to allow me to go back Utar?
i don't dare. that's why i never speak.
i know, maybe you'll think i want to stay here because of bb,
frankly true indeed, but its only small portion, i won't sacrifice my important studies because of someone.
MOM, can i choose not to study engineering?
MOM, can i choose to study finance or any arts courses?
I know you're not controlling me, you would give me freedom to choose, wouldn't you?
seriously i do not know what i want, i just don wanna leave you all.
tears drop whenever i think of going to uniten.
maybe things will change when i reach kl,
maybe i will get adapted and get used to kl life after i settle down.
but definitely not now, i can't imagine it at all.
i seriously don wanna go uniten,
i seriously don wanna go kl,
i seriously don wanna leave family,
i seriously don wanna leave friends,
i seriously don wanna leave him.
;( ;( ;(
yours sincerely
LAM MUN YEE
God, you're treating me bad and unfair ;(((((
