Monday, December 12, 2011 ♥
有时候，人真的很奇怪。
奇怪得无法形容。
两个毫无关系的人，
可以说是根本没有机会交集的，
根本不会意想到他们的人生是会有交叉点的，
可是偏偏，天意弄人，天让他们遇见，
重原本的陌生人，进展到无所不谈的一对，
到底是什么？让他们无法选择？
有时候，人真的很奇怪。
你以为她不会离开的，她以为他是理所当然会留的，
可是他不是，
当他走了，她才恍然大悟，没有事情是必然的，
心慌了，崩溃了，泪流了，不知所措了，
挽回，破碎的心，缝愈得回吗？
有时候，人真的很奇怪。
心碎了，失望了，绝望了，
可是偏偏要坚持，
为的是什么？
是爱吗？还是固执？
可以放手吗？
如果可以，他或她会离开吗？
Tuesday, October 11, 2011 ♥
guess this blog will be abandoned since i got a mobile secret diary :)))
Tuesday, September 27, 2011 ♥
a sudden urge to erase all of my memories,
good or bad.
to have a restart button in my life,
to be revived again.
i just feel like disappearing.
Thursday, September 22, 2011 ♥
i really cant imagine that you bought that for me.
really never never, that was once just a dream for me,
its nice to hold, nice to see, but impossible for me to buy.
tears dropped once i received that,
it wasn't because of i don't like or dulan you,
it was the money, feeling guilty somehow.
really thanks my love.
i love you more than words can say.
i wouldn't leave you even if never ask for it.
Thursday, September 15, 2011 ♥
thanks for showing me your anger
and now its the end :)
i would even feel more grateful if you leave.
thanks for being with me though you are having exam.
i know you can't feel what i really feel,
but i understand, no one else does except myself.
thanks to your parents, it cheers me up :)
waiting for result :(
god bless me.
Thursday, September 8, 2011 ♥
feeling awesome these few days,
credit to the love one.
im happy, to be together for more than a year.
it sounds impossibly possible to me.
but because of you,
I DID IT.
Friday, August 26, 2011 ♥
tomorrow digital logic :(
confirmed gg. sigh.
sometimes i just hope you to see every updates of mine.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 ♥
i never do anything wrong, why life torments me like this?
can everything back to its origin?
i don't mean to break any bond,
i hope nothing has happened.
wish to go to a totally new place,
a place where i know nobody and nobody knows me,
and start a new life.
if i were given a second choice,
i wouldnt have chosen this path.
perhaps the road not taken is better.
Monday, August 22, 2011 ♥
still the same.
whenever i voice out my problems, my worries,
argument occurs.
really funny sometimes.
seriously hate
Sunday, August 21, 2011 ♥
why?
i thought she has a normal life now?
sigh
an emo night,
after a short reading of a blog.
i feel bad, as always.
i don know what happened to my body.
i can never recover,
nose bleed everyday, mucus with blood everyday.
wth?
sigh, god bless me.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011 ♥
如果可以，我真想和你一直旅行。或许是某个古朴的小镇，或许是某座灿烂辉煌的大都市。我们可以沿途用镜头记录彼此的笑脸，和属于我们的风景。一起吃早餐，午餐，晚餐。或许吃得不好，可是却依旧为对方擦去嘴角的油渍。风景如何，其实并不重要。重要的是，你在我的身边。Tuesday, August 2, 2011 ♥
i feel good, once in a blue moon ;)
the way you treat, i can feel it.
changes have been made,
i don't know if it lasts, hope so though it's uncontrollable.
thanks god.
god bless me for examinations!
another subject killed me,
i failed.
yes, failed.
thanks.
sorry.
sorry.
Thursday, July 28, 2011 ♥
static, can you please be kind to me?
i know, i didnt put my effort on you,
because i'm really not interested to the way of getting you,
but, please, treat me good can?
suddenly out of mood,
no why,
no when,
no where.
i'm just so zzzz
sometimes, crying alone in a room is just fun.
who knows what am i crying for?
neither me, myself.
i always wanted somebody to care of.
but failed, i cant find the somebody.
im just used to be alone, in everything.
sometimes wish to be isolated,
so that i can laugh as much as i can, alone.
so that i can cry as loud as i can, alone.
nobody knows.
who cares?
Thursday, June 23, 2011 ♥
dilemma dilemma. dying for decision.
emo, emo max.
i wont be happy forever.
unless, thats the final decision.
wish i would have the bravery
Thursday, June 16, 2011 ♥
after so long, thought myself have getting used with it.
silly thought, fucking idiot decision.
what should i do? what should i say?
whenever i think of facing it, i seriously feel like dying.
i don wanna go back anymore,
to face different skin colours human,
i don wanna waste my 4 years there,
uni life? now im hating it a lot.
easy come, easy go? 4 years! and im done.
no good memories, no friends, no gain, no experience.
im crying, tears dropping , im so helpless.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhh
emo kills!
im seriously a fool
Saturday, June 11, 2011 ♥
我很烦。
我不知道我可以怎么样。
把一切收在心里吧。
我真的不知道怎么样了
maybe im just too stupid,
im too stubborn,
shouldn't have cared so much,
shouldn't have bothered,
life still goes on,
alone.
wants to go club!
wants to go club!
wants to go club!
wants to go club!
wants to go club!
so badly!
wants to get once drunk,
wanna try how it feels when i totally lost my conscious.
guess it would be fun exclude vomiting.
wanna give up, able?
trying.
maybe i shouldn't get myself involved into it?
sigh im really confused!
i don wanna know anymore.
i will shut my mouth up and care nothing
Thursday, April 14, 2011 ♥
Wednesday, April 13, 2011 ♥
just few questions, brought to this situation.
im way too smart.
am having a severe headache yet have to deal with this.
really excited.
why tears drop? they shouldn't have dropped.
fucking idiot me!
maybe things will change after this.
smile ;)
daddy mummy gonggong popo! i miss all of you.
mika mika mika, i miss you.
so wanna go home, i don wanna travel without family.
i promise, i'll bring y'all for vacation when i have the ability ;)
wait for me ;)
it's the only hope for me, family is the most important.
thanks god for letting me to escape earlier ;)
i'm relieved =)
here is the only place for me to express my feeling.
no one knows,
include you.
people tend to hope, but truth spoils it all.
Saturday, April 9, 2011 ♥
still, i'm all the way as shown in the picture ;)
i'm killing myself off !
knowing that you are all i want,
but i can't do anything,
i'm so helpless baby.
the steamed prawn with egg by us !
♥how to do you heal a heart that can't feel?
its broken.
Thursday, April 7, 2011 ♥
no, my mind, please stop working.
no, my heart, please stop feeling.
or i will die.
am finding a real best way to release myself but failed.
heart is feeling crumpled up like a rubbish.
too much histories to be accepted.
and i couldn't do it.
sorry
im just missing home too much.
im just missing you too much.
;(
i love disneyland!i can never remember my burden or any worries when i was in disneyland.
it was really really awesome and wonderful.
you'll get indulged in all the surrounding and environment.
seriously i often say that i don like cartoon or any disney characters,
but when i was there i can never express my excitement.
it was just too fairy tale until i forget i'm in this realistic world.
how i wish i will be there forever and ever, with you ♥
i can never erase my memory for disneyland, next target, america disneyland!
went there makes me to change my perception.
i'm sometimes way too stubborn and i often make things complicated.
i wish im able to change myself and i know it will make a drastic difference in my life.
sometimes im glad that i have you in my life.
学会放开，必能得到快乐。
可是谈何容易？
人的一生，到底为自己或他人而活？
多么的希望我是独自一个人，完完全全生活在自己的世界里。
自己的决定，自己的抉择，是多么的兴奋！
自己的感受，已经是我的完全，世界是多么的简单。
然而，讨厌社会，讨厌世界，是他们把生活复杂化。
生活，谈何容易？
亲情，谈何容易？
友情，谈何容易?
爱情，更加谈何容易？
放开，更是谈何容易？？？
missing old times when we were in secondary school?
no i don't. it was way childish
can i rewind the time and have my secondary time all over again?
sadly i couldn't.
funny and amusing to see the same thing happened again.
childish people will always be childish,
it's a fact and it's undeniable.
i don wanna refresh how it happened in secondary or even now.
wish to stay with you and everything is no longer a problem.
Saturday, April 2, 2011 ♥
hong kong day 1 !
first of all, the biggest dissatisfaction in hong kong would be the taxi drivers!
the way they drives and their attitude really suck to the hell.
second, the air pollution zzz, sneezing non stop just because of the polluted air, so wanna die.
first day- tsim sha zui.
walked a lot but buy nothing due a lot of people and grandparents arr waiting,
will be going there again with sis again.
realised that the porridge here is way better than msia's, not bad.
vegetarian food here is quite delicious too.
that's all for now.
i miss you.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011 ♥
shiwotaitianzhenhaishiwotaitanxin
woshiwanquanbukuailede
woshuoyaodeniwanquangeibudao
dangwozaitongkuyichangshi,niwanquanbuzhidao
woduomodexiangnishipeizhewode
nikeyibanihuazaidiannaohedianhuodeshijiandouhuazaiwoshenshangma
wotaoyan,shenzhitaoyandaowoleiliumanlian
nigenbenbuzhidaonigenbenbuzhidao
youshihouwoganjuebudaowoshinenvpengyou
time is needed. thanks
Saturday, March 26, 2011 ♥
rewind time back to the past?
it's impossible ;/
decision making based on current and future!
still, i'm all the way as shown in the picture ;)
the steamed prawn with egg by us ! ♥